Is there a God in this world? This is a question going round and round in many people minds. Is it because God has revealed Himself not enough that human cannot find Him? Or is it because of human's heart that has been hardened with pride trying to deny His presence every minute God trying to reveal Himself to them? And who God is? Why is there a God? Why can't our naked eye see Him? When will He reveal Himself? And do I really need God? Why then do I need Him? Is there only one God or there are many? Why it seems different races of people worshiping different God? And finally what is the relationship between God and human? Do we really have answer for these questions or the answers are just human made?
Questions are good for they help us to understand God better. I am born in a family of idolatry meaning my family worships idols. Hence I always think God does live in a handmade idol. There are so many different appearance idols, thinking there must be many gods. However, this question will come to my mind of whom will be the most powerful. And whom shall I worship. Do they really help me if I worship them? Will I be punished if I don't? But as parents were doing so, I just followed as an honor. I do believe parents are doing so as an honor to their tradition too.
As I started studying in KL, I started stopping the tradition. But my life still going on as normal without any difference. However, I do face trials in my life few times. Falling again and again because of greed. Greed has seriously destroyed my life before! A trial of darkness that I will never forget in my life! And it destroyed my relationship with my family too. Love wasn't something filling up my heart at all since my secondary school, only stress, selfishness and greed of money did! So during college life, there has been people sharing about Jesus with me. I was forced to attend church, forced to listen about the gospel (good news). Though I am forced, I opened my heart to listen all the testimonies people were sharing to me. I started to encounter with God, started to know Him more like never before. Knowing the true Jesus that Christians shared with me. It was through the words they shared that gave hope to me. I found hope to get out of the darkness in my life.
I never understand about unconditional love but now I see it. I thought every thing has a price that I can pay myself. But I was wrong, my life can't be paid by myself. I started to realise I am a sinner, that I have wrongdoings in my life regardless of how good I keep myself. Even if I never wrong anyone before, claiming self-righteousness has sinned in pride. I also started to realise I need someone to forgive my sins so that I can gain new life. I need this forgiveness to wash away my sins. Therefore I claimed this forgiveness on 9th of June 2010 (15 months ago)! This forgiveness is so powerful that it washes away my past, present and future sins, ALL! Yes, it is all! All because Jesus has died for me on the cross, shedding His own Holy Blood for my sins! This is where I realise I need Him!
I begin a new life after that night proclamation of being a Christian! I started to walk with God, started to walk with love, no longer in darkness, no longer walking alone! I begin to call God my Father in Heaven! I begin to see everything I pray being answered! I begin to live with joy! A joy that keeps my heart delighted every day! This joy is strange, is like a peace that nothing could describe it! It is not a peace the world can give to us! Is a peace from God! I begin to know a peace that speaks of everlasting security in my life! I begin to know nothing in this world could stop me because I already have God living in me! I begin to have answers to all the questions that were in my minds when I was young! I know I would be able to go through every trial in my life if I have God with me because when I call, He will be the first to answer me! I also begin to know God does talk to us! He is not silent, He created mouth for us so we could speak and so He could listen to us! He talks to me to comfort me, to provide me with solutions and wisdom! He is a good God!
He cares for us all! How could I just keep this love within me, hence I decided to share with everyone hoping no one will miss His love and His promise of everlasting non-perishable life for our lives especially after death, everyone will receive a ticket to Heaven to dwell with Him forever! And God is with me everywhere I share the good news of salvation! People get healed of all kind of diseases when I lay hand on them. Is really awesome too when seeing people getting delivered out of demonic bondage too, and receiving joy and hope back to their life!
I hope this has helped you to understand God better! I pray that you welcome Jesus and accept Him into your life too! Grace and peace be with you! Wishing you all the best! Amen!